LIfe in Freight Management

How's my new job and my new lifestyle now? Many of you will ask... Answer:-

I had hell lots of hard time to adapt to my new lifestyle and to love my job at first. I believe everyone will or had gone through this stage of life. It was hard. The first day of work i came home hating my job and unsure with what i want, whether to continue or to quit. As time past, I told myself; Im not born to be a quiter. I just cant quit my job so fast. Im still learning. I have to be patient so I stayed on and continued learning to love my job. People dun born in bed of roses just like that. I believe for those who did, will go through tough obstacles in life as well.

So now im growing and starting to adapt to my new lifestyle. Learnt how to smile and laugh every single day in office. Thanks to my manager, Wendy and my other colleagues whom Im getting closer with. I know I've complaint going through office politics issues but I've learnt to ignore and be deaf when facing these issues. They are there to bring you down and it is only you who can lift yourself up. Easy to say hard to do but if you really try hard, you can.

So fast 1 month life in Freight Management past. got closer with my colleagues. We actually went out for a trip together to ipoh on the 7th and 8th of November. Cant believe Im saying this, but I had LOTS of fun going out with them. Im the youngest in FM; The mei mei of FM. Not gonna explain much. Will let the pictures speak for themselves. You decide and you judge. Whether I had fun or not.. hahahhahaa...

TRIP TO SUNGKAI HOTSPRING, PUB, LIN SENG TONG, SAM POH TONG, KEK LOK TONG.

INTRODUCING:-
Mandy, Wendy, Lyn, Lee Hong & Christine

All my JIEJIES. hehehe..

I was the only one who could withstand the hot water, dipped for damn long.. and the outcome of it>>>>>

Our beautified feet. It's obvious which one is my foot rite? hahahhaha!! HALF COOKED.
Human foot for main course anyone??

Posing for the camera before boiling the eggs. The water was 90C-100C. DUN PRAY PRAY ar..

ME peeling the egg shell. Mandy saving the shell from breaking to pieces. IN SHOCK! hahaha!!

And the results of boiling eggs with hotspring water>> Egg yolk turns out to be in BRIGHT sun yellow colour. DAMN NICE!!

Forget about the model. Focus on the egg... hahahha..

Love this picture. We were not near each other. Wendy took it in an angle which makes all of us look close. CUTE!!

All of my JIEJIES and me....

Posing for the cameraman to take picture. Thank you PAK CIK!

INTRODUCING:-

JAMES, colleague from FM Ipoh. Stayed over at his place.
Picture taken in the pub where we all got COCK STARED! because of how we dressed up to the pub. But HELL!! I dun give 2 shits about them as long as WE ALL HAD A BLAST!!!! We were the only one dancing while others jst drink their hearts out.. (NOT FUN AT ALL)

US. After the shower looking fresh the next morning after the long.... night..! *Ching*

Mandy, Christine, Lee Hong and me. NICE...

Natural pose picture taken by Wendy.. Love her photography skills. Taken with DIGITAL CAMERA!!

Even I had lots of fun, i still had things going through my mind. ZOOM in to see what i wrote in the WHITE BOX in the picture.

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Overall the trip was fun! It was my first time going out with all the JIEJIES and KOR KOR. Trust me, you will never know how crazy we can be. Especially those JIEJIES..

**Would like to give credits to WENDY, LEE HONG AND MANDY for taking most of our pictures during the trip, to all the JIEJIES and KOR KOR for taking good care of me during the trip and ensuring Im alright and had lots of fun! THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH!!

LOVE YOU ALL LOTS!

sushi zanmai life...

i've been working in sushi zanmai, one utama since march til 28th september... became an assistant captain from 16th april til last monday.... working in sushi zanmai brings me joy and happiness.... that is why i felt so depressed knowing that im gonna leave soon... anyway, i shall post some pictures.... (as you know, im an IT idiot. that is why i dun post pictures in my blog always but i shall try)

this was taken during my surprise birthday celebration :

my birthday cake bought by them

from left - right : Ck (asst manager, me, ah yian phillip, ah mei, shiau wei and janet)

from right - left : me, shiau wei, ah yian, ck, ah mei, azman, janet

hello it's us again =)

the super trio aka charlie and his angels : shiau wei, CK and me!! (lolz!!)
p/s: yes, im lucky to have an assistant manager who is crazy and fun! that's why i enjoy working there with him..

this was taken during sushi zanmai 1st annual dinner :

super dining, group of japanese restaurant 1st annual dinner in one world hotel..

1ST ANNUAL DINNER!!

ah mei and me
(ah mei is the one whom i mentioned in my previous blog that she's my closest fren in zanmai)

ah yian and me
(ah yian is like my youngest sister whom i can always talk to if ah mei is not around or when she's not available to talk to.. ah mei got bf ma... ya know what i mean)

ming and me

(he is a chef who has experienced working in this line for 5 years. he is also like ma brader.. hahahha)

my fnb general manager : jon san and me
(when you see him first thing for you to do is =D.. please... or else he will ask you why arent you smiling? having a bad day? )



my colleague : jack /asst manager zanmai pyramid : alvin / and me
(jack is like my sai lou in sushi zanmai at first but after some issues we're no longer that close but still i dunno why i sometimes still care about him...)

this is actually my second time wearing dress.... and the 2nd dress i wore which is to the annual dinner is too sexy for me.. so not used to it.. but have to wear it also cause got no dress to wearfor this special occassion.. but turns out i do look ok.. not as bad as i thought.. BUT I STILL LOOK FAT!!

thanks to Sianny.. my wild, crazy, fun, close fren in sushi zanmai.. i miss you too!! muaxxx!!) she's the one who lend me the dress and the bag and did the make up for me... so nice of her! muaxx!!

having the thought of leaving all my love ones in sushi zanmai is really heart breaking... but i really have no choice if i wanna do good in my future... that is why after the annual dinner aka my last day, ah mei and i ended up in tears.. the pictures taken outside the ballroom are mostly taken while im still tearing.. good thing not so obvious... i really miss and love them so much... until now im actually still thinking of them... the ups and downs we all go through during work and after work... the gossips about all the customers we're facing everyday... omg.. i miss those times.... and now...

im the youngest in my new company... but i'm glad that i get to clique well with most of colleagues there... so although some may heard about my first day experience in FM is not really a good one, but i think i can be sure now that i might be ok as i get used to it.. jst need to give me some time to learn and adapt to my new working industry and my new lifestyle.. so wish me all the best!!

and to all my sushi zanmai frens!!!! i love and miss you all so so very much!!!!!!!!!

dreams come true...

one of my dreams was to drive up to genting with myvi... weird dream but yeah that was one of my dreams.. my another dream was to enter genting's casino one day... jst to experience and not to gamble... lolz.. -MISSION ACCOMPLISHED-

last friday 11 sept 2009 was the day i actually drove up to genting with my myvi with ah mei and ah heng in my car... first time driving to genting sure is pretty scary not to mention driving in the middle of the night.. i drove to genting about 2 am (after work)... crazy but exciting! ck, ah boey and shiau wei in one car, ah lai, ah kent, and ah hao in one car.

driving uphill + winding + curvy road for a first timer sure is scary and challenging as you need to play with your gear most of the time.. thank goodness i was driving auto and i must say that my car is fit enough to be able to drive up to genting and i was so proud of my car.. lolz. half way through the journey up ah lai almost bang me as he wanted to cut me in a one lane road... stupid fellar!! that was scary.. another scary thing happened was when ah lai's car almost fell into the drain cause he almost lost control of his car while driving on a sharp curve. gosh!! ah hao and ah kent were damn funny!! they stopped at the safe place and started cursing ah lai for his driving and making their balls shrinked!! AHAHHAHAHAHA!! omg.. then ah heng wanted to drink beer so ah kent and ah heng switched places. ah kent sat my car up.

then when we reached genting i was thankful that i reached there safely without a single scratch!! heheh.. so we were planning how to get into the casino as ah mei, shiau wei and me are underage. ah mei went to genting many times but she always fail to get in. so the 3 of us tried our luck. fyi... shiau wei failed everytime miserably when she tried to enter the casino..

so ah mei followed ah hao.. shiau wei followed ah heng and i followed ah boey. ah boey and i waited outside the entrance and checked whether the coast is clear... play safe ma... lolz. so ah mei and ah hao got to enter... then ah boey and i walk towards the entrance.. shiau wei and ah heng was in front of us... they got to enter so ah boey and i followed behind them. as we got to enter the guard stopped ah heng to check his ic then shiau wei dumbly stood there to wait for him then the guard sense something wrong and told the other guard to stop her from going in and then ah boey was smart enough to pull me in immediately.. lolz.. so yeah first time attempt and it was successful!! i got to enter the casino!! pity shiau wei.. that night she tried to enter 3 times with 3 different guys and 3 times she failed. so that totaled up to 5:5 failed... so she was alone after the 3rd attempt.

the casino is damn damn huge!! damn a lot of ppl and damn a lot of rich ppl also.. seeing them gambling was fun.. there were noisy gamblers, silent gamblers and kiasi gamblers.. all of the guys gambled and the girls stood beside them watching.. lolz. as in ah mei and me.

then the next scary part : driving downhill! if you cant control your car and if you hit the brakes many times to control your car, you might stop your car at the side because of the brake/rubber burnt smell. good thing i didnt use much of my brakes. ck taught me to play with my gear instead of using the brakes. now another best part. finding your way back. kinda used the wrong way back to one utama.. and i have to pay many tols. guess what... after finding my way back, i only reached their hostel at 6.35am... reached my house 7.00am.. slept 8.00 am... thank god i was working 2pm the next day.. but still i gotta wake up at 12pm.. gosh!! lesson learnt.. never to go genting with them if im not off the next day... because you'll end up being a zombee during work.. everyone was tired and blurr the next day.. many problems and mistakes done... but it was all a good experience..

p/s: carmen... i like the way the dealer handle the game/cards/chips... their hand movement is fast and smooth.. lolz.. miss you!!

updates bout my new upcoming life...

so bout the new job offer.... hmmm.... I've went for the interview on last Tuesday.... it was scary a day before and not so scary during the interview with Ms CJ... a very very experienced lady who has been working in FM for a very very long time... so what was the outcome you all may ask...

date of availability would be 1st October.. that is what Ms CJ wrote on the employment form... so i assume that i actually got the job... starting work on the 1st October....

it's completely a new thing for me as I've been studying hotel management majoring in food and beverage for 2 years and been working in sushi zanmai since march this year... suddenly changing to customer service in a FORWARDING (lol... have to change it.. this cant be wrong!!) company would be a big challenge for me.. but as everyone says... it's always a good thing to learn new things in life... get more experience and knowledge... in future, use the knowledge and experience to get better job and SALARY ... lolz...

i was negative about it at first but i think i need to keep myself positive to love my new job.... but i know i will be very 'hard hearted' to leave zanmai as i have been close to everyone there... the kitchen staff (ah lai, ah heng, ah hao, mike and ah meng) treat me like their "BRADER" *hits chest twice end with peace sign* arrhhh you know what i mean... and ah lam and ah teck, both PIC of kitchen staff whom i've been working with and always helping me to solve customer's complains... and ah chien whom i prefer to cook my YAKIMONO items/yakisoba ... oishi ne!! haihhh.... and the service staff (shiau wei, ah yian, ah yee, jack, phillip and angeline) that treat me as their "family/fren".... it's really gonna be sad and hard leaving them... especially my boss, CK whom is very understanding, helpful and caring.. and asst supervisor, Ah Boey whom i treat as my "daddy"... also very understanding... for this one month without my parents here, all my ups and downs are shared and solved with both of them... all my ups and downs are shared with Ah Mei as well whom i treat as my jiejie and closest best buddy as she is super understanding and she cares about me a lot...

OMG.... Writing this post also brings tears in my eyes... i wonder what will happen to me in another month time and how am i gonna be in my new job...

p/s: i've already wrote my resignation letter.. it's hard i tell you but have to do it some how... my mom especially hoping and wanting me to get the new job... you dunno how many arguments we've gone through throughout my hesitation of accepting the offer... all is filled with tears of stress and depress...

and i would like to take this opportunity to thank all my frens and family who has motivated and supported me throughout my hard times and persuaded me to accept the offer... you know who you are.... THANKS A BUNCH!! love ya'll to bits and pieces... hahahhah...

feelings......

being home without my parents here with me makes me treasure them more than before... both my parents are in india right now.. they will be there for 2 months.. now, i have to handle everything at home... i may look strong and independent.. truth is, im not.. i always have the lonely feeling in me whenever i see others having fun or with their love ones... i've been in depression for quite some time now but i dun show it... i hate it when im off and not going out anywhere especially when im cashless or lack of cash.. i hate it when im bored.. that's when i start thinking a lot and always ended up crying.. guess im jst lifeless... to be honest, i want someone to love and someone to love me right now...
*my love one means everything to me.. now only i know.. it's a bit too late but hey.. better to know now than never...*

working gives me life.. working in zanmai gives me hope and life... but changing to a different work place might be a whole loads of different story... to be honest, im still hesitating whether to take a better job offer which was offered to me by esther's mom.. i've spoke to many ppl about it.. all advised me to go for it but i dunno... lack of confidence and low self-esteem makes me think twice about the JOB... the thought of leaving my bestest fren in zanmai, ah mei, kills me.. but i know i can always contact her even if im not working there.. but to me, everything would be different.. i've experienced that but is with someone else..
*trying to dare myself to accept the change but in the end i know im a coward to do so..*

many things to think of right now as im going through the stage of entering the adult world.. i hate this feeling but THIS IS LIFE.. i know... that's why no matter what im trying hard to go through it til i get the satisfaction. it may takes time but i have to be strong!! saying is easy, doing is tough/hard.. haihhhh... i dunno... i jst dunno what i want right now... working keeps my mind focus... not working makes my mind wonder.. thought bout suicide but no point.. i myself know very well that would not solve the problems. it gives others more problems.. we are mature to solve every problem we are going though... (quote: angeline jie)
*being patient by letting time lead me to where it wants me to be*

to all my old frens, you all should know who you are... I MISS HANGING OUT WITH YOU PPL!! I MISS THE LAUGHTER WE HAD.. I MISS THOSE CRAZY TIMES WE HAD... (to : primary/highschool/college/working frens)
*im jst being emo.. that's all..*
-n-

Near Death +__+ experience!! i*&^%#* DAY!!!

have you ever face anything so serious that you might think that you'll die at that very moment?? after facing it wat was your reaction? did you maintain your ego and say you're ok but you're actually not or did you cry cause the fear in you has fought through your egoness?

well, i faced a near death situation on last saturday while driving to work..

i should tell you this : the last saturday was not my day.. it was a really unlucky day for me!!

INCIDENT NO. 1

so before heading to work (still at home) my dad was checking my car and then he said my car front left tyre puncture.. so drove to the nearest tyre shop to check all my tyre.. that particular tyre has nail in it that's why it has no air! wtf.. so i was supposed to go early to work on that day because i was supposed to teach a new staff HOW TO WORK IN ZANMAI (i had to bold it.. dun ask why) so they patched bck the tyre for me and after checking all 4 tyres, they told me the rear tyre is not so good ad... it has no "flower" ad.. so i asked how much.. it's rm100+ /tyre.. no thanks. i'll change it when have the money later..

AND THIS IS WHEN THE INCIDENT HAPPENED>>>

I was driving to work as usual, using KESAS highway(rm2.20 tol) then cut through the way to subang airport to go to NKVE highway(rm1.00 tol) REMEMBER I SAID IT WAS RAINING..

after reaching NKVE highway, i needed to go to the exit to damansara to go to ONE UTAMA and this is what happened.. that exit road is quite winding.. there's grass along the road.. so when it rain, the road will be slippery.. this time i was not speeding.. somehow i got lost control of my car while driving at a corner.... the back of my car swung itself to the right and i had to steer my car to right and make it straight again.. IT WAS A PRETTY BAD IDEA!! MY CAR STARTED TO SWIRL LEFT TO RIGHT AND IN FRONT OF ME THERE WAS A JAM BEHIND OF ME THERE WAS A LADY DRIVER!! WTF!! i maintained calm and tried to get back in control of my car again... and it became worst as well.. my car started to move itself left and right quickly and this is when i started to panic because i was so close to hit the cars in front of me with the speed of my car was going, i might have died in the crash.. i felt there was an angel or a guardian right beside me when i finally got controlled of my car.. i was <-> close to bang the car in front of me.. and i was lucky that it was a lady driver behind of me. if it was a maniac guy driver driving behind of me i swear to... i would have jst died on the spot with fatal head injury...

the lady driver drove beside my car to look at who is this bitch driving and gave her a shock early morning.. she looked at me i was very embarrassed to look at her but i took a glance and said sorry... i was lucky that she's not those lady who will start cursing and scolding.. I was shocked i called up Ah Mei my closest fren in Zanmai but couldnt get through her cause she was working so called up esther.. and i was shivering while i told her about it.. shit i tell you.. when i reached zanmai, my face was pale, my hands were cold, and i was still in shock. i couldnt talk and couldnt work. after that i jst sat down and then got up to told ah mei about it and sat down again to relax before i start work.. and i thought i would be fine after that... before reaching zanmai....

INCIDENT NO. 2

i was walking towards the entrance from the open carpark.. walked beside a puddle of water... and a driver at that particular time jst have to drive through the puddle and make the water splash at my pants.. why when i had a long walk beside dry land he dun want to drive beside me but only at the moment when i walked past that particular puddle you jst have to drive beside me... damn it...

INCIDENT NO. 3

i was taking my favourite regulr customer's order and i was using PDA... i thought i have keyed in A6 which is the table she was sitting.. after a long time, when A2 customer paying, he realised that he didnt order garlic rice small and gyuniku enoki roll twice.. to me that order was really familiar but it didnt ring a bell that it was actually A6 order.. as i said i thought i keyed into A6 so i thought they got their order already.. then i was furious at the ppl at the back section for taking wrong order or keying order for the wrong table.. then when my colleague told me that A6 was asking for their garlic rice, it rang the biggest bell in me. i checked the system to see who keyed in the order and was bad enough to see my name in big capital letter beside the order... WTF!!! I had to apologise to everyone and the customer for making them wait so log.. thank god their order was done quickly and sent to them... later we had to give them a complimentary dessert.... haihh... it's so not my day.. i thought i have pressed A6 before keying in the order... wtf...

INCIDENT NO. 4

During closing, the floor was wet, my shoes are flat have pretty worn off... so it was very slippery.. i took a tray of disposed sushis and walked towards the BAR to throw it... and the next best thing happened.. i jst had to fall right in front of my colleague includings some of the chefs on my BUTT!!! wtf... and when i tried to get up i fell again... i was so mad at myself and mad at everything because of whatever things happened to me today... i threw the tray, took my bag slammed the locker's door and walked out and talked to ah mei and burst out crying... i couldnt stand it... then i called Paulina to talk to her about it... cried and cried.... and then told her that i still owe the bank money... was really stressful about what is happening to me these days... found out that my dad have nose cancer, my grandma is going through her chemotheraphy and doing good... thank god... and my mom's company is a SHITASSFUCKINGMORON company.. make my mom work so hard yet they dun pay her her salary on time.. she still havent get her another half od april's pay and may's pay... WTF!! and she told me she quit that job but i have no idea why she still goes to work everyday... haihhh... my life is going through a lot of obstacles now...

INCIDENT NO. 5

came back from work, got into my room, and it was SO DIRTY!! EVERYWHERE WAS FILLED WITH HAIR AND DUST!! argggghhhh!!!!! and the worst part... MY SISTER USED MY LAPTOP AND DIDNT PLACE IT BACK ON THE TABLE AND YET SHE JST LEFT IT THERE ON MY BED!!! WTF!!!!!! I LOCKED MY DOOR BEFORE THEY BREAK INTO MY ROOM, TOOK MY THINGS TO USED AND THEN LEFT IT IN HER FREN'S HOUSE!! PUT PASSWORD FOR MY LAPTOP SHE COMPLAINED ABOUT IT!! TOLD HER I DO SO CAUSE THEY DIDNT OBEY WHAT I SAID YET HAD ALREADY CROSS MY LIMIT!! AND THEN SHE CAN FUCKING TELL ME BECAUSE OF WHAT I DID SHE'S BEEN GOING OUT A LOT!! WTF!!! WHEN I DIDNT PUT PASSWORD YU STILL FUCKING GO OUT EVERYDAY!!!! DUN FUCKING PUT THE BLAME ON ME WHEN YOU GO OUT YOURSELF ALL THE TIME!!! HOUSEWORK DUN DO LET POPO DO EVERYTHING AND YOU STILL HAVE THE HEART TO JST GO OUT LIKE THAT!!! WTF IS WRONG WITH YOU?!??!! i was so mad and frustrated with everything i jst throw my frustration by punching her door.... my hand was not painful but her door cracked... AS I SAID DUN PISSED ME OFF OR YOU'LL SEE THE DARK SIDE OF ME!!! DAMN IM PISSED WITH HER!!!!! i shall not mention which sister.. those who are close to me would know.... living in this house brings not much happiness but give me more burden... CANT RELY ON ANYONE ESPECIALLY MY SIBLINGS in this house... only my brother listens to me... which im very thankful... cant really rely on my parents now cause they are also going through hard times now..

i jst have to stand STILL on my own feet now... i have to brace myself to go through this obstacles... as CK said... there would be a time when one may face every single problem coming to you day by day... jst have to pray more now... lolz.... it wont come to you at one go but it will come to you slowly... that's what i hate... relieve that is over but stress when it returns...

LIFE SUCKS!!!

F!n@77y UpD@+3D.. lolz

so yeah... here i am updating my blog... because someone asked me to do so.. i saw her yesterday and today.. and she never fails to ask me to update my blog... so here i am... lolz... LAME..





firstly, i would like to answer questions which are frequently asked by everyone:



a) Eh?! You finished your studies ad ar??

answer>> YES... graduated in december....



b) Aren't you gonna continue your studies??

answer>> I WANT TO... but i cant...



c) Why not take scholarship??

answer>> how much can it help me?? NOT MUCH



d) Why not take loan??

answer>> i cant really afford to pay back my loan cause i'm working now to pay off for my car installment every month now which is rm757/mth.. so i doubt i could afford to pay back loans...



e) Are you gonna be in Zanmai for good?

answer>> i doubt i'll be there forever but at the moment that's what in my mind... as long as i have the money to pay for my car.. BUT if i have a better offer obviously i will leave zanmai..



today after work, i went to jeth's cafe to celebrate esther's birthday with ameleen, whay lyn, yee lin and eng huat... lolz... and yeah!! ESTHER'S BACK!! HEHEHEH... unfortunately i have to work while she's back here in malaysia... it wont be like last time when i was jobless and lifeless and spent most of my time hanging out with them.... haihh....